Unwanted thoughts

 1. Kyu muje lagta hai ki log Itne aage badh gaye hai or hum vahi reh gaye, kyu muje ye Khayal aata hai ki mai sab ki parwah karti hu per mere liye koi soch nahi raha, Kyo esha mehsoos ho raha hai ye chije muje apne ghar se sochne per majboor karti hai, mai sab kai baare mai sochhu or mai apne liye kuchh achha accpect kar sakti hu na koi ek jo muje bataye ki tum kya ho, kyoki mai bahot jyada sagharsh se aage badhi hu log mere apne mere baare mai achha na sochhe to muje apne baare mai to achha sochna hoga jo mere aage jivan mai muje aage badhane ka salikha dega, muje apne baare mai bahot sochna hai or mai ab traveling karna chahti hu ek fress feel jo muje kisi ek khas skhs se mile, kyoki sometime I feel ke mene sab ke liye kiya per mere aane vale bhavishya or mere partner ke baare mai koi achha nahi sochega muje ye sab se bhi uper sochna hai, muje koi farq nahi padega ki jo risto ko mene samja per unho ne nahi. To ab bahot lamba safar ho gaya hai bas ab muje isse nahi sambhalana.

2.Kya aaj ke jamane mai koi khud ko tarastaa hai, a Rendom thought in my mind, sab expolre karne mai lage hai sab kuchh apne aaspas ki chije per vo nahi taraste khud ko kyo

3. You know mere liye first priority mera career hai, or mai us pe kam karna chahti hu, mai chahti hu ki mera partner esha mile muje jo mere career or jivan ke sare utar chadhav mai sath de, mai bhi unke liye esi supporting partner rahungi, muje ek special space chahiye apne vicharo or unhe apne liye khde hone ke liye, mai nahi chahti ke saadi ke bad mai ek gharelu mahila bani rahu muje ek achha bhavishya chahiye apne liye or muje partner se ye encourage milna chahiye, mai unke vicharo se unhe pasad karna chahti hu mai nahi chahti ke sadi ke baad jimedario mai fas kar apne bhavishyo ki or aaj ki khusal jindi bhool jaye

4.Hey I just wanna do something more for my life because I am so curious to focus of my self & I want to everything for my self I always doing my best for my journey, just help me god alot because this journey in I have so much struggle & also challenging for me, I wanna do everything for myself or muje lagta hai mere sath koi bhi nahi, or kabhi mehsoos Hota Hai ke jivan mai esha kuchh bhi achha hasil nahi hoga or jo achha mila tha ve bhi mere pass se chala gya mere pass mere barose ke alava koi bhi stand lene vala nahi hai, nai us mukam pe hu ke muje bahot sare decision ek sath lene pad rahe hai, saadi ka bhi decision vo jo sabse eham rehta hai muje nhi lagta ke achha Partner milega bhot hi negative ho gai hu

5. I want to ring ceremony with him & knowing him how to build together our life building, can we walk together silenty at long route, how it beautiful our journey define me in your conversation then quitly we care each other & tell you I am for you always while I am puting hand on your heart, I see you how beautifully manage our talking satge if you bore of something tell me just give me space and I will catch you later, I know journey will hard for us but will manage together, if needing any satge of life I will take care you give it to break and go for trip not with me go for solo or with freinds

6.Hi, you know muje aapse ek baat का sujav चाहिए, mai vo stage पर hu jaha muje ek strong decision apne liye lena है, मेरे ghar mai bahut anban hoti hai kamke liye, पर mai sara Hi kam karke apne kam or office ko sambhalti hu, meri bhabhi ही na uska behavior bahot ajib hai, you know ghar के kam ko apas mai samaj ker ek dusre mil jul kar karna chahiye na, पर unka behavior thoda toxic hai mere bhai ko tocher karke vo galat baato ko manvati है, usme meri age sadi ki ho gai hai or muje apna career bhi sath mai banana hai to mai ek perfect decision apne liye lena chahti hu kabhi apne ही ghar mai ajib mehsoos hota hai, mera jivan 27 salo tak bahot hi kathin raha hai, अब मैं apne liye ek achha nirnay lena chahti hu के मेरे aane vali jidagi mai khush rahu और mera partner bhi samje muje to muje kya karna chahiye. Per ये mere liye bahuot kathin hai or muje ise karne mai bahot dar lag raha hai, muje dar sata raha hai की muje jesa partner chahiye वे नहीं मिलेगा, ur ghar mai bhabhi baat karne ki jagah hamesa chilane lagti hai, muje unka behavior bilkul achha nahi lag raha or mai bahot confuse or lachar maehsoos kar rahi hu kabhi lagta hai की mai career के bare mai souchu or dusri city mai move karu per yaha mere papa dadi hai unhe meri bhabhi care hi nahi karti chahe vo mare jiye unhae koi farq nahi padta, तो mai kese decision lu ve jese bhi hai per hamare parents hai or muje unki bahot care hai, mai kese decision ले sakti hu please ek strong decisions lena hai muje apne liye because mene bahot kuchh kiya hai sabke liye or muje lagta hai mai ab mai aane vali jindi mai ye sab nahi jelna chahati because ab muje bahar की दुनिया mai travel karna hai, because 27 saalo tak bas mene apne jivan ko gharki char diwaro mai samet kar rakha ab mai chahti hu bahar की दुनिया explore karni hai, usake sath mai.

7. muje esha kyu lagta hai ki internet mai jo sawal ke jawab puchh rahi hu we sare hi answer mere pass already hai, to fir kyu mai prashna puchati hu

Kyu mal logo ki bhavana on ki kadar karti hukyu eksamay muje lagta hai ki ye sab karana vyarth hai per ek samay esha karna achha lagta hai.

Pida sehna kya karm hai, kuch galat ho raha ho tab chup rehna sahi hai kyo vyakati galat chijo per kabhi apni bate nahi rakhta vo samaj raha hai ye galat hai to kyu ve unper baat nahi karte, kya unhe pata nahi lagta ki ye sab hone se dusaro ko pida hogi unpe kya asar hoga khash ker mata pita ke bare mai bolna, kya mata pita ke niji mamle mai hame bolne ka hak hai kya une aapsi riste mai past mai hua unke baare mai sab ke samne baate uchhalna sahi hai kya, muje kyu bura lagta hai jab mere apne log unke bare mai kehate hai, tab mai kyu man mal sochati hu ki unko bolu ye sahi nahi hai aap aap bar bar mere parents ke baare mai esha keh rahe hai, tab mai kyu sochati hu ki unhe galat lagega but mule unhe jorr se bolne ka man hai ki aap risto ko uchhal rahe ho

Kisi ke pichhale risto ko bar bar unke samne la kar kya uchalna achha hai kya muje esha koi karta hai to kyu achha nahi lagta, kyu muje bura lagta hai ki mai unhe worn karu ki ye aapki baate baar baar ek i cheez per atak rahi hai, kyu aap apne liye or apne aprivar ke liye achha nahi sochati hamne to aapke bare mai esha kuch nahi kaha kyu esha man karta hai ki keh de unse per aap nahi kar pate 

Per ve samhe hi nahi to kya karna or ve chilane lagti hai bate sunti hi nahi hai, to muje lagta hai ki unse doori banana muje thik lagta hai

 

It is meant to be for me.

Today 28,February, 2025 I feel so much positivity for my dreams my inner soul telling me tumhe apne liye ladna hoga. Or tum bahot kuchh paogi. Tumhare pass vo bahot kuchh hai jinke liye sabhi koi Wark kar Rahe hai. Learn new things for your self.

Jab mai kisiki jaroorat mehsoos karti hu har baar akele khada pati hu apne aap ko. 

Meri self worth sabse uper hai kisi bhi chij se 

Jab kisi pe trust karti hu vaha mai apna trust har baar tuta mehsus karti hu.

Fear I have fear in the home why I don't know. Muje lagta hai ghar mai sabko sabki bhavna oh ko samjna chahiye nahi to vo ek dar man mai jivan bhar betha rahega jese mere man mai hai mai apne ghar mai khushi nahi mehsoos karti why ? Why I am feeling this. 

hamre parents middle claas nad vo ladkiyo ko bahar bhejane se dar rahe hai, or unke ladkiya bahar jana chahti hai duniya ko dekhna or independent jeena chahati hai to kya kare or unke gharme ladkiya esi resposibilities mai ji rahi hai ki ghar ka kam kare bas per ladkia nahi chahti ke vo khali ghar mai rahe, to hame bahar jane se kyu dar lag raha hai kya hamare aaspas ka mahol esha hai is liye, or yadi hamre aas pas ke log ladkiyo ko support nahi karenge to hame ladkiya hamesha ek dari sehmi or char diwari mai ghar ke kanm karne vali hi reh jayegi, muje lagta hai hamre desh mai abhi hi ehsa hai ladkiyo ke liye jabki mai manati hu vo bahot kuchh achive kar sakti hai ye mai pure atmvishwash se keh sakti hu, khali unka atmavishwash or unhe samaj ka samna kese karna chahiye ye sikhana chahiye o vo bahot kuch apne live or apne aane vale kal ke liye ek mishal ban sakti hai, ye sari chije mai mehsoos karti hu par muje ye sab dar satat rahe hai to kya karna yadi mai ye soch iye soch kar bethio rahi to mai apni jivan ki achhi chijo ke mayane nahi sikh paung on paungi or ek ladki hi bar kar reh jaungi please help me how to bold and corrageus because mai apne ghar valo ko lakh samjau vo nahi manege muje nahi, or mai apni jidige dai ki ki planning planning kh khua karna chahti hu mene sath hone vale acche or bure kam chant hu per mure bandhan lag raha ki jimedari mai lena chahti hu per muje hai kese ok satik feshia la mujue aphi nge mai bahot kuch karna hai har ek samay ko achhi tarh se ina na mere ander ka vo dar nikaina hai bas muje kese karu, mene apne aaspas bhi apni jesi females & ladkiya dekhi hai ki vo jimedario mai apne sapne ko bhul jati jai to mai nahi chahti ki mera aane vala kal esha ho mai kai sari javabdario ke sath ek mahila hu or mera ek astitva hai ye mai nahi bhulna chahahti or mai sari chijo ko bahut confidently nibhana chahati hu or mai apna khud ka Saman karna chahti hu. Chahe kitni muskeliyo ka samna karna pade mai karungi.

Hi, my name is meeta rana. I like to make some good food for me & I like to live solo in this journey because here so much rush for all the things. Yet I am so confused about the things. You know in the my routine life I have done my 10 to 7 job & managing my home & this stuff for me is very challenging I don't know. You know I should like to travel somewhere for some fresh air.

Apne satisfaction so leke kisi or ko dhokha dena bilkul galat hai.

Jab mai office per aa rahi thi to ek kabutar complex ke bahar khadde mai pani bhara hua pi raha tha. I like to watching 👀 .

Aaj 3,April ,2025 hai or muje aaj fir se kuchh Rendom gane sunne ka man Kara. That's is my feelings. 

You know they have more talk about physical intimacy & they stay alon from their personal stuff teaching regards study so some time,

How can I impress my partner because they don't spent so much time with me & also their conversation is very law with me I don't know who they are just I want to know about what they feels for me not only physical also I like how to attach emotionally 

This is Meeta Rana, gradually I am learning good things but I am 28 yrs old so what can I do for my self that is most important questions. You know I like to learn most of things but I don't have more time. I have main question how I am encouraging my self day by day because regularly I am doing same things I want to good career with my beloved and I wanting my living life will good I know in life we all have have ups and down so how can I juggle all those things. Yet I am focusing on my communication then I learning my self what I want you know in next five yrs I have good business woman work entrapernure.